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It’s strange; I came back to this site I’d forgotten about, and it’s still here. Like a room I didn’t know was locked, and when I opened the door, I found it unchanged.

Last time I was here, of course, everything was different. I was worried about her illness, but my mom was still alive. She died at the very end of last year, two weeks ago; it would have been her 52nd birthday this coming Sunday.

I miss her so much. I don’t see how people can say that if they have their lives to live over, they wouldn’t change a thing. There is a great deal I would change, and I would start by coming down to Mississippi a lot sooner to take care of her.

I feel like I came too late. Better than never, but still…it is bitter. I cannot justify my actions to myself; I wasn’t paying enough attention. Everything I was worried about seems trivial now. You don’t know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone.


Written by ponyboi

January 13, 2012 at 1:15 pm

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